Nothing Gold Can Stay

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold,

Her early leaf's a flower;

But only so an hour.

Then leaf subsides to leaf.

So Eden sank to grief,

So dawn goes down to day.

Nothing gold can stay.

~{The wonderful and amazingly talented} Robert Frost

Well, this is my absolute favorite poem ever...and i found it appropriate for the way I've been feeling lately. I guess I've been bumming and freaking out a little with the approach of Fall, Ayva's departure to Kindergarten and my impending joblessness...(is that even a word?!) Anyway...to add to that, I was class president in all my years of jr/sr high school except one...so naturally I inherited the task of planning our ten year class reunion...which no one wantd to offer any help or input with! So...it went down like this...I planned a Happy Hour get-together with appetizers at a bar in Granville, where we graduated and then a more formal get-together at a BEAUTIFUL place on Glen Lake, (very close to Lake George). We had a buffet set up and it cost $35 per/person for the buffet, drink ticket, and icluded tax an tip. I was using class funds to pay for every classmates ticket and only holding them responsible for guest ticket..pretty reasonable I think, right? Anyway, I got 11 RSVPS to the buffet gathering, which I was most worried about getting a solid number...and YES, I harrassed a little to make sure I could get an accurate count. So I took 11 responses, times two for guests...and gave the place a number of about 20-25 expected guests. Friday night Happy Hour went pretty well, we had about 12 classmates show, some with significant others...which got me pretty pumped for Saturday...Guess how many showed? 6!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have never been so disappointed, irritated and embarassed in my life. Did I mention that beuatiful location on Glen Lake also happens to be one of Ron's accounts?? Ha! I felt like such an ass and am soooo dissappointed in my classmates! So, no sweat off my back I guess, but our class fund ATE IT big time for the 25 tickets that I paid for! Oh well. We were never a very close group to begin with, and I guess I'm not surprised in the end. It was really nice to see a few of the people that did care enough to show up!!

On the other end...I have not yet found a job, still looking, and worrying about insurance for Ayva. I have applied for unemploymnet and will have an appointment Wednesday to get insurance rolling for her. Her first day of Kindergarten is RAPIDLY approaching, and I know I'm going to have a super hard time letting go...but I guess everything really does happen for a reason, because now I will be able to be there to drop her off and pick her up in her first day, instead of being in my own classroom! And poor Ron...my below-average attitude has not been good for him lately. But we had a really nice heart-to-heart last night, and he told me exactly where I stand with him, no matter what. He's always very good at talking some sense into me whe I get all melodramatic! Well...here's looking to FALL...the beautiful changing of the leaves, the Adirondack Balloon Festival, the County Fair , my sister's wedding, Ayva starting an important chapter in her life...the starting back up of dance classes, open houses, parent teacher conferences, plays, concerts etc...except now I get to be on the parent side of it!! Wishing all of you a wonderful school year!!!